I recently attended the baby shower of a good friend. As she opened each gift, she introduced the giver and said a few words about their relationship and/or what made that person special and/or what she admired most about them. It was touching to hear all of the kind and flattering remarks towards each of the beautiful women in attendance. She often spoke about their friendship, the person’s spirit, love for God, contribution to her life, etc. It was a love fest for sure.
If you are anything like me, you would’ve sat there and quietly thought “hmmm, wonder what she could say about me?” (side note: if you didn’t think that, I’d question your humanity).
Then it was my turn.
“Everyone, this is Jackie. Jackie is a hot shot hotel executive working hard in Atlantic City. If you need a hook-up for a hotel room, this is the woman to call!”
Then I was sad. (J/k. Not literal, friends.)
Why you ask?
The “top of mind” description of me was further confirmation of my brand…of the role I’ve played in my friend’s/family’s lives of late…or not…of my accomplishments…or lack thereof.
Over the past year and a half, I’ve invested the majority of my waking hours into my job. And I suppose I have the professional accomplishments and accolades to reflect. However, that is about all I’ve done. I haven’t been particularly present in the lives of my loved ones (new husband included). I haven’t nurtured relationships. I haven’t developed a life outside of work. I haven’t been a good steward over the time, talent, and treasury with which I’ve been blessed. I haven’t done much to benefit anyone’s life…other than my own (and for some even that is debatable). I am ready for that to change. Frankly, I need for that to change. I long ago discovered that the “best me” is a balanced, well-rounded me. So it would be in my best interest to diligently work towards more balance.
In the past, the “best me” has been a good friend, daughter, sister, mentor, employee, and citizen. And those were the things for which I was known. That’s how I want to be described. I’m on the road to re-discovering that me. Stay tuned.
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